That's how stranger I felt.

Yea. Now only like 5:53AM but I am already up cos I tot of you... it really isn't that east for me to forget you. How you sleep, how you smile, how you always give people that "you win Liao lo" face. Find it most adorable when you smile :DDD

So you went drinking yesterday. So did Jasper too!!! But you two were drinking with two different groups of people. Msg you also nvr reply. So I also dun bother to even call Liao la. Cos dun need to say, you confirm wun pick up de!!! Cos she's around ma... I wonder if you ever did that to other girls when you're with me too... I guess NOT!! it's only when you doing NPCC things you'll do that lo...

Saw that photo. Was like "wow~~~ okay..." I wonder if your parents even know about your current night life... Sometimes I really wished that I was born earlier... Then there'll be a lot of things that I can do right now. Cos in Singapore, once you're 18, you can drink, get married, you can drive, get a life, no restrictions, have freedom! It's hard to resist the temptations of being 18. However, also comes with responsibilities. Who would wanna get married at 18?? Wanna drink, drive and die?? No??

It really was hard to resist the temptations to send you a text msg just because I've always been doing that. Hard to break the habit chain cycle. That is how you've already became a part of my lifestyle. Without any replies from you, I tot of the things that you would do and might be doing maybe when you're drunk(?)

With her around now, I'm just a nothing just like how you used a cloth to polish your boots till that cloth is totally stained with black spots and you just flung it aside and get a new one. Can't even msg you, call you or contact you when she's around. Wad am I?? Who do you treat me as?? Do you know how i treat you?? Questions kept flowing through my mind. Yet, I dun get any answers even if I asked you.

Talked to Gerald for the whole night. Shared some gossips too. Hahas!!! Really thankful to him. If not for him, I guess I'll be terrorizing your text and calls by now. Think you'll be totally freaked out la... You said that you'll teach me for math and physics. But you went drinking yst night so might not be able to do so. Excuses(?) I think despite getting a hang over, you'll be going to find her lo... Cos why?? Told you le, I'm already nothing to you le. Right??

One of the reasons why you wanna break up with me. Cos I'm childish and immature. Now I can tell you that you're the immature one instead. I finally realised why I even put in the effort to convey those msg I wan you to know into stories. I'm not that straight forward and cruel uh... Hahas!! So you took advantage of my sympathy and judged that I'm immature. I know how it feels like to be told off by the person closest to you about the flaws that you have. I had my darling telling me that. It felt bad. I didn't want that to happen so I tried some other ways which you deemed as immature.

The longer I talk to other people about us, the more I felt that actually, I wasn't at fault! It's the communication wise which made the problem difficult. Wrong interpreting an intention which was not to harm. Nevertheless, I still love you for who you are now and maybe forever. The memories we had together and the fun times we spent together. You fulfilled my childhood dreams of wanting to fall ever so deep in love. I feel I can die in peace already. But I can't. It always fails...