I think I'm really sick... Haiz!! The last thing I wanna get when no one is gonna take care of me. I hate this feeling. Makes me miss the hugs and the company of the one who used to sit by my bedside when I was sick. I swear I need someone right now to hug!!! I miss that scent! I'm scared!!! For no reasons... Call me a coward. But that's how I am, get scared easily by the littlest things :'(
Yst I was like. Wah... You fall sick more than I do hor... And today, I have to take back my words. But you still fall sick more than me in... let's say 3 months ba. Yst ask you take anarex for headache and fever. Today, my turn to take anarex, for severe headache!! Now all I have to do is to wait for half an hour to pass. Hopefully it would go away.
Today, I told myself that I have to finish English essay and SS SBQ. In the end, I found out that I left my SS book in skool. Can't do, so I wanted to complete my essay. Half way through the day, I was sneezing like mad. More than 10 times in a row. I swear that I could have fainted due to lack of oxygen. Sneezed so much I curled up into a ball. Soon, tears were rolling down my cheeks. Then, cried for no reasons. Hehes... Eventually, landed in lalaland for an hour plus only to be woken up by the headache. 真的很辛苦啊！Dear God, please be nice to me. Dun ever let me fall sick again without a boyfriend or a guy for me to hug! >.<
I'm not that independent. I'm slowly trying to. But just not yet.
Haix! Today actually wanna drink alcohol de. But considering the current headache that I am having, the alcohol could only make it worse. At least I'm still responsible for my own health.
As for my English essay, I done like 4/5 of it already. Just a little of the forth para and the last para and I'm done. But I think I'll only finish it tml. Cannot tahan the pain liao. Hate it when the park is just downstairs... Noisy even with windows closed. Causing more stress to my head!
Feel like just screaming downstairs "야!!!! 시끄러!!!". Even though I know maybe not even a person will understand wad I'm talking about, but that confirm will just shut them up. But, I now talk also mummy have to go "huh?!" Liao. How to shout?? Can't. I feel so pathetic! 真的很想哭了啦！
Friday, 22 June 2012
Thursday, 21 June 2012
Twin towers kena earthquake??
Wahahahahahas!! Actually dun wanna be busybody de la. But looking at the state it became, hurts me la!! 5 Years together de buddy, brother, partner suddenly become like this... See le very Teamwork. You 2 both told me before la. Without each other is like hard to finish work. Hahahahas!! I know okay... Can see de. Dat's why always got meeting right. Need to meet up to talk things out and complete work which needs to be done. I know the situation now. Sudden meetings. It's always been like this isn't it??
Although i dunno how you 2 are like now. Cos also not very close le. But i remember how it was like. You 2 always strove for the best for the unit(WGS) de. You confirm remember me asking you "Me and NPCC, which one you choose??" You told me NPCC okay. Although at that time i was a lil upset but still happy that you know your priorities la. It shows that you know wad you wan. Remember your answer when i asked you why NPCC??? You said that NPCC is like your second home where you grew up at. The place you learnt lotsa things and it is where your passion is. REMEMBER OR NOT???!!! Gotta tell you, your ans hor... Very touching ah but i hope it's not just a line that you've rehearsed to tell it to other people just so that they will trust you la. Cos the passion coming from your eyes when you said that, it just sparks the feeling of "WOW~~~ Rare peeps. You're so gonna be successful in the future".
So now, 饮水思源!!! That word, familiar hor?? My chinese not good ah... You can tell me wad this means?? I think i forgot leh... But hmm... Didn't mean to trash you but, hehes! Your home and new house. You choose. Which one you wanna stay in?? If you choose the new house, and you abandon your home, dun you feel like "this is so wrong, no matter wad, that place holds lots of my memories. Without it, i wouldn't be able to be who i am now" those kinds of feeling de meh????? NO HAVE???? It just feels like suddenly that full of 人情味 de person became so disappointing towards the person who brought him to success.
You may wanna start a new life of some kind or even, to wanna settle down thinking that it's time you made that decision. It may not be the first time you made that decision, but remember, why do you wanna think this way?? Just because you've finally found something or someone who made you feel like it?? Of cos not right?? You must have went through lots of trails and tribulations, gone through lots of stepping stones, met with failures and disappointments before you finally feel that you have found the "way of life" you really want. Correct me if you think that i'm wrong.
If this is really so, then don't you think that you have to give thanks and gratitude to the people of the past too?? The "stepping stones" which have made you who you are now?? Well, unless you're not greatful for wad you are thinking now, you SHOULD be thankful to all the people you've met with, the people you've worked with and the people whom once, been so significant to you. You might be thinking that they are not important now but since they've brought you to where you are now, don't you think that actually, they ARE still significant and will always be no matter where you ended up in?? No matter if they were your enemies, partner, anti-fans, admirers, buddies, teacher, lecturer, acquaintance, friends, best friends, students, family, stranger, or even someone who had hurt you badly.Each one of them have taught you something in life. E.g. a rapist(if you were to be raped before). Although the person raped you but hasn't it made you wanna be more aware of the people around you?? Haven't you actually gained something from being more aware?? Okay maybe not. But it must have helped you avoid the same thing from happening again. Didn't it??
Okay... I'm going off track!! HAHAHAS!!! Actually i also dunno wad i'm talking about le la!!! I suck in expressing my own tots and feelings la. So, pardon me.
Also dunno why i would tear knowing that things have turned out this way. Kindda felt that it was partly my fault to be blamed. Both of you are the persons whom i love. We were once very close. We shared lots of memories together, had many of those "it's the first time i did this" moments together. And most importantly, both of you are the first ones to teach me how to love and to be loved. Hehes... Might think that i'm talking loads of bullshit uh... But yea. I seriously dun wish to see things end up like this la. You 2 de ego level very high. But can drop that for things which are important to you de. So, for your 5 years of brotherhood, drop your weapons and talk things out can?? Chill down can?? 5 years you've went through thick and thin, rough and smooth, happiness and sadness, successes and disappointments and the list goes on and on and on. Dun wanna be so leychey la. So generally went through many things together okay?? So, think, issit worth it?? 5 years leh... I dun even have a friend who stayed there for me for 5 years except for Quan, Eve and Ivan. But, almost like on off relationship kind of friendship la. You 2 even though 5 years only but seems like have been friends since birth those type.This kind of things confirm can solve together de right?? Well, i know you 2 might not be reading my blog le but well... Hope either one of you actually would get my msg la. Hahas...
Wah... feels like i've written a long essay and cried a bucket already. If i do this for my english essay, Ms Azleen is so gonna kill me, so many singlish and grammar errors. Well... Hope everything would go well for you 2 la. My fave jokers!!!^^ LOVE YOU 2 TTM!!
Found this quote online. Hope it helps... Ignore the hearts.
Although i dunno how you 2 are like now. Cos also not very close le. But i remember how it was like. You 2 always strove for the best for the unit(WGS) de. You confirm remember me asking you "Me and NPCC, which one you choose??" You told me NPCC okay. Although at that time i was a lil upset but still happy that you know your priorities la. It shows that you know wad you wan. Remember your answer when i asked you why NPCC??? You said that NPCC is like your second home where you grew up at. The place you learnt lotsa things and it is where your passion is. REMEMBER OR NOT???!!! Gotta tell you, your ans hor... Very touching ah but i hope it's not just a line that you've rehearsed to tell it to other people just so that they will trust you la. Cos the passion coming from your eyes when you said that, it just sparks the feeling of "WOW~~~ Rare peeps. You're so gonna be successful in the future".
So now, 饮水思源!!! That word, familiar hor?? My chinese not good ah... You can tell me wad this means?? I think i forgot leh... But hmm... Didn't mean to trash you but, hehes! Your home and new house. You choose. Which one you wanna stay in?? If you choose the new house, and you abandon your home, dun you feel like "this is so wrong, no matter wad, that place holds lots of my memories. Without it, i wouldn't be able to be who i am now" those kinds of feeling de meh????? NO HAVE???? It just feels like suddenly that full of 人情味 de person became so disappointing towards the person who brought him to success.
You may wanna start a new life of some kind or even, to wanna settle down thinking that it's time you made that decision. It may not be the first time you made that decision, but remember, why do you wanna think this way?? Just because you've finally found something or someone who made you feel like it?? Of cos not right?? You must have went through lots of trails and tribulations, gone through lots of stepping stones, met with failures and disappointments before you finally feel that you have found the "way of life" you really want. Correct me if you think that i'm wrong.
If this is really so, then don't you think that you have to give thanks and gratitude to the people of the past too?? The "stepping stones" which have made you who you are now?? Well, unless you're not greatful for wad you are thinking now, you SHOULD be thankful to all the people you've met with, the people you've worked with and the people whom once, been so significant to you. You might be thinking that they are not important now but since they've brought you to where you are now, don't you think that actually, they ARE still significant and will always be no matter where you ended up in?? No matter if they were your enemies, partner, anti-fans, admirers, buddies, teacher, lecturer, acquaintance, friends, best friends, students, family, stranger, or even someone who had hurt you badly.Each one of them have taught you something in life. E.g. a rapist(if you were to be raped before). Although the person raped you but hasn't it made you wanna be more aware of the people around you?? Haven't you actually gained something from being more aware?? Okay maybe not. But it must have helped you avoid the same thing from happening again. Didn't it??
Okay... I'm going off track!! HAHAHAS!!! Actually i also dunno wad i'm talking about le la!!! I suck in expressing my own tots and feelings la. So, pardon me.
Also dunno why i would tear knowing that things have turned out this way. Kindda felt that it was partly my fault to be blamed. Both of you are the persons whom i love. We were once very close. We shared lots of memories together, had many of those "it's the first time i did this" moments together. And most importantly, both of you are the first ones to teach me how to love and to be loved. Hehes... Might think that i'm talking loads of bullshit uh... But yea. I seriously dun wish to see things end up like this la. You 2 de ego level very high. But can drop that for things which are important to you de. So, for your 5 years of brotherhood, drop your weapons and talk things out can?? Chill down can?? 5 years you've went through thick and thin, rough and smooth, happiness and sadness, successes and disappointments and the list goes on and on and on. Dun wanna be so leychey la. So generally went through many things together okay?? So, think, issit worth it?? 5 years leh... I dun even have a friend who stayed there for me for 5 years except for Quan, Eve and Ivan. But, almost like on off relationship kind of friendship la. You 2 even though 5 years only but seems like have been friends since birth those type.This kind of things confirm can solve together de right?? Well, i know you 2 might not be reading my blog le but well... Hope either one of you actually would get my msg la. Hahas...
Wah... feels like i've written a long essay and cried a bucket already. If i do this for my english essay, Ms Azleen is so gonna kill me, so many singlish and grammar errors. Well... Hope everything would go well for you 2 la. My fave jokers!!!^^ LOVE YOU 2 TTM!!
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
No motivation at all!!!
It's the last week of the June hols. Lotsa hw to be done, no motivation to even start one... Haix!!! How did I actually survive June hols hw?? Anyone remember?? Can remind me how I did survive?? Cos I forgot how... Somehow I even forgot how to study Liao!! Jialat right... Why must all these happen to me!!!! Not only that. Since that day, the house had been total hell till now! Screams around the house. I guess it had always been like that but I just didn't realize back then(?) So now that I know... I'm fwagging pissed off la... No one remind me to chill, so I screw anyone who pisses me at home. Lika walking machine gun! Piss me and see wad you get. Wait... Is this me?? Why do I sound so stranger to myself?? Urgh!!!!! FTS!! Guess I totally lost myself... 我跑到哪里去了？我是迷路了吗？怎么种觉得自己好像找不到回家的路能？家在哪里？I guess I shouldn't had gotten so deep into that foreign land. I dunno where I'm standing anymore... I'm scared. Yet, all I can do now is act like I'm totally fine and... FML!!!
Thursday, 14 June 2012
JKMS~ <3
Haven been a really good or a really bad day. Days as usual, go skool for D&T and stuffs like that lo. So also nothing special to talk about. Except for this guy who texts me every night for no reason. Hahas! First time i heard from someone that K-ing in the rooms is cute. Dunno him la. But i think he's the cute one instead. For the past few days, had been trying to keep myself busy...(i guess).
Monday, woke up like 6AM in the morning to meet one of my cadets at the old BNS and headed down to Bishan. The train in morning was packed like sardines (that when I held onto my phone, it was only less than 10cm away from my face) while the speed of the train was like caterpillar crawling. Wad seems like 30mins from Woodlands to Bishan suddenly seemed to take for ever!! When we reached Bishan, we tailed a RI student to the campus cos we dun really know how to enter the skool. Headed to the campus' canteen to meet up with Miss Azleen and the rest of the unit for the Astar camp. It was the last day of the camp. I brought homework there so i sat beside Miss Azleen and tried to get my physics homework done. Half way through, helped Miss Azleen to think of some ideas for an enrichment session for WGSRCY. We did chocolate making, kite making, dragon boating, hippo tour, balloon sculpting in my five years in skool. So had to think of something new and beneficial. Initially tot of batik since we did it in Batam but it might be dangerous cos we had to burn the wax and the tools and materials have to be bought. Plus, we didn't have someone to teach us how it should be done nicely. So i suggested fabric dyeing. Might require some boiling if we were to extract the dyes from plants but would most prolly not be as dangerous. Anyways, were all First Aid certified RCY cadets. Scald, we know wad to do yeah~ So did all the planning, research and stuffs like that while the cadets and the VIs do their things. After the whole parade and activities end, bused the cadets back to the skool. The boys hor... Haix!!! So inconsiderate la!! They changed out their uniforms on the bus at the back as if it's their house. There are females on the bus la please!!! Had a long 2 hours talk with Miss Azleen with bubble tea in our hands at Vista Point after all the kids went home. It was sure encouraging for a form teacher to be counselling her student like that for 2 hours straight!! It seems like counselling had always been 2 hours or more for me. Problems like a piled up rubbish dump like this. Can't even burn! Headed down to the bank to collect money after parting ways with Miss Azleen. After that, i stood in front of the MRT station for about an hours or more cos i was deciding if i should go to Pasir Ris to celebrate Edwin Lim's birthday. In the end didn't go cos it was too late. So i decided to wait for mummy to come back then go home together with her. I think i stood too long or something. Got some dizzy spells and almost fainted... When i reached home, had a little food for dinn and went to sleep straight afterwards. My sister even had to help me change out cos i can't really move. That night, woke up around 11 plus near 12 and had an ENJOYABLE talk with someone who knows me way too well... Hahahaas!!!
Tuesday, skool as per normal. Went to skool at around 9 plus 10. Nothing much happened that day so yea... It's always at night that phone calls can get interesting lo. Texted this guy all night he's kindda... Dunno wad to say. Random?? Met him for awhile cos of something and came home, sleep. That's all i can say...??
Wednesday which is yesterday like 50mins ago. Morning, the new CD shop's staff called me cos i wanted to get B1A4's Ignition Special Edition album but it cost like $35?! Ex la!!! So i went online and searched for preorders online from Fan sites. They are the best la!! Always offering the lowest prices for K-pop fans. So without considering much, transferred money to order the Album for only $23. The new CD shop is like cheating money okay... $12 diff!!! That's a lot okay... Headed to skool at around 1030. Did quite a lot today. I guess. Then asked Mr Tan for solutions for my problem in the end, my artifact became more complicating. CONGRATULATIONS, YONG SIN YEE!!! YOU DID IT!!! MORE WORK FOR YOU TML!!! Haiz... Like wad the shitt la... So tml gonna head to skool early. And leave early cos after that gonna meet darling and other girlfriends to town for shopping spree~ Rare chance. Hope i dun get too tired tml and faint again uh... Hahahas!! Mummy say she gonna bring me to the doctors during the weekend le. Cos think i've got anemia or something like that... Yea. Hope all's fine.
Well, gonna hit the sack soon. Not early lo~ Just gonna share a song before i end this post.
Was looking up on Parachute Band and randomly clicked this song. The song is really nice though. *thumbs-up*
P.S. ILOVEYOU
Monday, woke up like 6AM in the morning to meet one of my cadets at the old BNS and headed down to Bishan. The train in morning was packed like sardines (that when I held onto my phone, it was only less than 10cm away from my face) while the speed of the train was like caterpillar crawling. Wad seems like 30mins from Woodlands to Bishan suddenly seemed to take for ever!! When we reached Bishan, we tailed a RI student to the campus cos we dun really know how to enter the skool. Headed to the campus' canteen to meet up with Miss Azleen and the rest of the unit for the Astar camp. It was the last day of the camp. I brought homework there so i sat beside Miss Azleen and tried to get my physics homework done. Half way through, helped Miss Azleen to think of some ideas for an enrichment session for WGSRCY. We did chocolate making, kite making, dragon boating, hippo tour, balloon sculpting in my five years in skool. So had to think of something new and beneficial. Initially tot of batik since we did it in Batam but it might be dangerous cos we had to burn the wax and the tools and materials have to be bought. Plus, we didn't have someone to teach us how it should be done nicely. So i suggested fabric dyeing. Might require some boiling if we were to extract the dyes from plants but would most prolly not be as dangerous. Anyways, were all First Aid certified RCY cadets. Scald, we know wad to do yeah~ So did all the planning, research and stuffs like that while the cadets and the VIs do their things. After the whole parade and activities end, bused the cadets back to the skool. The boys hor... Haix!!! So inconsiderate la!! They changed out their uniforms on the bus at the back as if it's their house. There are females on the bus la please!!! Had a long 2 hours talk with Miss Azleen with bubble tea in our hands at Vista Point after all the kids went home. It was sure encouraging for a form teacher to be counselling her student like that for 2 hours straight!! It seems like counselling had always been 2 hours or more for me. Problems like a piled up rubbish dump like this. Can't even burn! Headed down to the bank to collect money after parting ways with Miss Azleen. After that, i stood in front of the MRT station for about an hours or more cos i was deciding if i should go to Pasir Ris to celebrate Edwin Lim's birthday. In the end didn't go cos it was too late. So i decided to wait for mummy to come back then go home together with her. I think i stood too long or something. Got some dizzy spells and almost fainted... When i reached home, had a little food for dinn and went to sleep straight afterwards. My sister even had to help me change out cos i can't really move. That night, woke up around 11 plus near 12 and had an ENJOYABLE talk with someone who knows me way too well... Hahahaas!!!
Tuesday, skool as per normal. Went to skool at around 9 plus 10. Nothing much happened that day so yea... It's always at night that phone calls can get interesting lo. Texted this guy all night he's kindda... Dunno wad to say. Random?? Met him for awhile cos of something and came home, sleep. That's all i can say...??
Wednesday which is yesterday like 50mins ago. Morning, the new CD shop's staff called me cos i wanted to get B1A4's Ignition Special Edition album but it cost like $35?! Ex la!!! So i went online and searched for preorders online from Fan sites. They are the best la!! Always offering the lowest prices for K-pop fans. So without considering much, transferred money to order the Album for only $23. The new CD shop is like cheating money okay... $12 diff!!! That's a lot okay... Headed to skool at around 1030. Did quite a lot today. I guess. Then asked Mr Tan for solutions for my problem in the end, my artifact became more complicating. CONGRATULATIONS, YONG SIN YEE!!! YOU DID IT!!! MORE WORK FOR YOU TML!!! Haiz... Like wad the shitt la... So tml gonna head to skool early. And leave early cos after that gonna meet darling and other girlfriends to town for shopping spree~ Rare chance. Hope i dun get too tired tml and faint again uh... Hahahas!! Mummy say she gonna bring me to the doctors during the weekend le. Cos think i've got anemia or something like that... Yea. Hope all's fine.
Well, gonna hit the sack soon. Not early lo~ Just gonna share a song before i end this post.
Was looking up on Parachute Band and randomly clicked this song. The song is really nice though. *thumbs-up*
P.S. ILOVEYOU
Sunday, 10 June 2012
我真愚蠢。
Hi! Back! Haix! Dumb dumb me. I'm still the same Sinyee la, Generally. Only lost weight, lost that cheerful soul and lost the courage to trust others. 可是最终, 样子没变。朋友还在。家人没死。我还活。大家都没事。就除了失去心里那一大部分的感情之外，应该都没什么大碍。
这擦不多两个月的时间过得实在是太慢了啦... 总觉得时间太多。希望一天只有12个小时，那么一天就会跟快地过去。
Maybe it's cos I've no motivation to do things anymore ba. Last time study at night after you leave also no problem. Now see books, *snores*. And I realized something else. 因该是我变得越来越像你了吧...
I think I fall asleep faster now. Lie down, 3 mins at most, *sleeps like a baby*. Phone ring also wun wake up... Jialat. 会不会有一天跟你一样，睡得像头死猪... 안돼! 안돼 안돼 말도 안돼! But sound good... But sleeping too much 会肥呃... Oh Bitch! I'm always so indecisive... Argh! Forget it!
Lets see... Lets talk about yst. Supposed to go party at azzura with this guy friend yst night. But I heed his advice and gave it a miss. Spent whole day and night reading fan fictions. Love those stories ttm! It always gets my imagination running wild! How I wish I could just live in one of the stories... Then damsel in distress ,fairy godmothers and happily ever after would exist! Well, it's just too bad that we live in reality. And our only fairy tale time is the time we lack the most; sleep time! Cos of D&T, no rest, no sleep, no time study. Just hope that I would get a reasonable grade for my effort in the end.
To end off this post, wanna share a song. Call me maybe but Carly Rae Jepson. Somehow linked to the first time we met and talk. Wahaha! Think I'm listening to more English songs now. Thanks to the new karaoke app in my phone^^
Yeap. That's all goodnight earthlings!
这擦不多两个月的时间过得实在是太慢了啦... 总觉得时间太多。希望一天只有12个小时，那么一天就会跟快地过去。
Maybe it's cos I've no motivation to do things anymore ba. Last time study at night after you leave also no problem. Now see books, *snores*. And I realized something else. 因该是我变得越来越像你了吧...
I think I fall asleep faster now. Lie down, 3 mins at most, *sleeps like a baby*. Phone ring also wun wake up... Jialat. 会不会有一天跟你一样，睡得像头死猪... 안돼! 안돼 안돼 말도 안돼! But sound good... But sleeping too much 会肥呃... Oh Bitch! I'm always so indecisive... Argh! Forget it!
Lets see... Lets talk about yst. Supposed to go party at azzura with this guy friend yst night. But I heed his advice and gave it a miss. Spent whole day and night reading fan fictions. Love those stories ttm! It always gets my imagination running wild! How I wish I could just live in one of the stories... Then damsel in distress ,fairy godmothers and happily ever after would exist! Well, it's just too bad that we live in reality. And our only fairy tale time is the time we lack the most; sleep time! Cos of D&T, no rest, no sleep, no time study. Just hope that I would get a reasonable grade for my effort in the end.
To end off this post, wanna share a song. Call me maybe but Carly Rae Jepson. Somehow linked to the first time we met and talk. Wahaha! Think I'm listening to more English songs now. Thanks to the new karaoke app in my phone^^
Yeap. That's all goodnight earthlings!
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Friday, 8 June 2012
没想到就真的发生了...
Haix! It's only like 4 in the nothing yet I'm up already... Amazing right?? I hate this feeling la please... 原本期待可能可以轻松一点最后，满头的想到他就... *Sigh* I dunno anymore. 这种到底还有什么问题可以解决。
Today , I know that its kinda late but...Your smile had been my drugs. I was thinking of how sweet it was to kiss into it. I remember that time when I cried for MT paper you comforted me for a whole night. This time how will you react leh?? Nothing lo. Hahas! but why do I have that I wan a hug de feeling. Smiled at myself stupidly after I tot of that time. Happy memories~
Later at night, images of that day flashed through my mine. I remembered how you reacted when I pushed you. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have even loosen my grasp. Hahas!
Anyways, many things happened today. Feel so sorry for myself... Seriously, am I that easy?? Haix! 反正我已经变成一个很容易底声下气的人了。那就是我生命中的苦吧。要的东西都再也不可能得到，永远都得不到。所以自己想走向前一步时，一定需要让步。人家想要我做什么我就得做什么。 It kinda sounds like I've because easy.
보고싶어요~!
Today , I know that its kinda late but...Your smile had been my drugs. I was thinking of how sweet it was to kiss into it. I remember that time when I cried for MT paper you comforted me for a whole night. This time how will you react leh?? Nothing lo. Hahas! but why do I have that I wan a hug de feeling. Smiled at myself stupidly after I tot of that time. Happy memories~
Later at night, images of that day flashed through my mine. I remembered how you reacted when I pushed you. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have even loosen my grasp. Hahas!
Anyways, many things happened today. Feel so sorry for myself... Seriously, am I that easy?? Haix! 反正我已经变成一个很容易底声下气的人了。那就是我生命中的苦吧。要的东西都再也不可能得到，永远都得不到。所以自己想走向前一步时，一定需要让步。人家想要我做什么我就得做什么。 It kinda sounds like I've because easy.
보고싶어요~!
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Monday, 4 June 2012
난 지쳤어
Throwing things aside and continuing with wad i'm supposed to do. I think i throw everything aside liao. Until i dun even study :/ I'm not sure wad this is gonna be but hope nothing bad... I guess I'm just immune to those things already. Hahas... How to throw those things aside making sure that i still study leh... I keep telling myself need to study but in the end... HAIZ!!!
Recently, felt really down for i also dunno for wad reason!! No one to talk to also... Fucked up life. Feel like telling God that i quit!! Haiyo... Really nvr tot of unhappy stuffs la. Why people keep saying that i am doing things that way leh... Cos of the vids/songs?? If it is... Then it's cos i tot the songs were nice. Used to listen to it a lot then i share de... If it is about the posts, then it's nothing much also. Some i just feel like the quote nice also then post de. Shakespears and all... Not nice meh?? I like leh. Haiz... Anyways, dunno why some people even think that those quotes are even related to you. I mean not all are ya know??
Haiya. Lets just say many many things happen la. Now, i dun even know who to trust. Yea. I dun even think that I wanna trust myself anymore. Cos my heart just kept on being played with. Yes, everyone's doing that. Hey peeps, you know who you are la. Stop it can... Sometimes ah, you keep giving me this... I dunno... hen guai lan de feeling like i owe you de leh. And please... Stop talking to me about those things la can?? Wo hen lei liao la. I dun wanna think about it yet you keep reminding me. Tell you once and for all ah... He is my best friend. You know??? HUH??? YOU KNOW OR NOT?! F.R.I.E.N.D! Friend!!! Hao peng you! Chin han chin gu!!! So you fucking shut your cum guzzler's mouth up!! Dunno how many times i have to tell you leh... You wanna piss me off?? Go ahead. And boy ah... I just dun like you like that. Do you even know me well?? Do you even know him well?? No right?? So dun comment about anything between him and me. I had good times with him, he made me happy for that period of time. At least he can give me that. You, ma boy, just piss me off! So dun you even tell me any of your opinions about my stuff anymore or i stuck your own dick in your mouth! ARGH! I'm so gonna bite!!!
If this had nvr even happened... Guess I'm still happily playing around la. And, Guess i also wun turn into such a mess. Haiya... Wei shen mo bu yao rang wo kuai dian si diao... Fan zhen now, i shouldn't take life so seriously le. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to feel my desires, stress yi da dui. Anyways, in this life thingy, no one's ever gonna make it out alive. Lord, just take my life. I dun wan it anymore. The script too hard to act out liao... I'm not some kind of actress. I can't continue acting on like this. Je veux que vous savez tout! Mais j'ai peur de ce que tu diras, je suis donc en la poussant à côté pour le moment. Il est difficile de faux sourire à chaque fois que. Je suis fatigué, les gens ont beaucoup de commentaires sur chaque chose que je fais. Comment est-ce? Maintenant, ma vie est pourrie!Je ne veux pas que mes sentiments d'affecter notre amitié. Je veux les choses à l'aimer pour être utilisé. Le temps où je pouvais encore être près de toi malgré un autre partenaire. J'aime bien ça. Nous étions comme des frères et sœurs réels. Parlez tout et n'importe quoi, se plaindre de tant de choses. Je veux que nous soyons heureux avec l'autre. Ne pas essayer d'éviter d'autres ennemis comme chacun. Il suce que nous avons est devenu comme ça et c'est de ma faute pour abriter encore des sentiments pour vous. Je ne vais pas le montrer. Je veux juste que tu sois heureuse. Et je sais que vous n'êtes pas satisfait la plupart du temps en raison de son. Et elle n'est pas heureuse à cause de moi. Si je peux, je veux serait la rencontrer et lui dire combien vous l'aimez et qu'elle peut vous faire confiance sur ce point. Je ne veux pas vous voir à nouveau. Pas plus.
Recently, felt really down for i also dunno for wad reason!! No one to talk to also... Fucked up life. Feel like telling God that i quit!! Haiyo... Really nvr tot of unhappy stuffs la. Why people keep saying that i am doing things that way leh... Cos of the vids/songs?? If it is... Then it's cos i tot the songs were nice. Used to listen to it a lot then i share de... If it is about the posts, then it's nothing much also. Some i just feel like the quote nice also then post de. Shakespears and all... Not nice meh?? I like leh. Haiz... Anyways, dunno why some people even think that those quotes are even related to you. I mean not all are ya know??
Haiya. Lets just say many many things happen la. Now, i dun even know who to trust. Yea. I dun even think that I wanna trust myself anymore. Cos my heart just kept on being played with. Yes, everyone's doing that. Hey peeps, you know who you are la. Stop it can... Sometimes ah, you keep giving me this... I dunno... hen guai lan de feeling like i owe you de leh. And please... Stop talking to me about those things la can?? Wo hen lei liao la. I dun wanna think about it yet you keep reminding me. Tell you once and for all ah... He is my best friend. You know??? HUH??? YOU KNOW OR NOT?! F.R.I.E.N.D! Friend!!! Hao peng you! Chin han chin gu!!! So you fucking shut your cum guzzler's mouth up!! Dunno how many times i have to tell you leh... You wanna piss me off?? Go ahead. And boy ah... I just dun like you like that. Do you even know me well?? Do you even know him well?? No right?? So dun comment about anything between him and me. I had good times with him, he made me happy for that period of time. At least he can give me that. You, ma boy, just piss me off! So dun you even tell me any of your opinions about my stuff anymore or i stuck your own dick in your mouth! ARGH! I'm so gonna bite!!!
If this had nvr even happened... Guess I'm still happily playing around la. And, Guess i also wun turn into such a mess. Haiya... Wei shen mo bu yao rang wo kuai dian si diao... Fan zhen now, i shouldn't take life so seriously le. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to feel my desires, stress yi da dui. Anyways, in this life thingy, no one's ever gonna make it out alive. Lord, just take my life. I dun wan it anymore. The script too hard to act out liao... I'm not some kind of actress. I can't continue acting on like this. Je veux que vous savez tout! Mais j'ai peur de ce que tu diras, je suis donc en la poussant à côté pour le moment. Il est difficile de faux sourire à chaque fois que. Je suis fatigué, les gens ont beaucoup de commentaires sur chaque chose que je fais. Comment est-ce? Maintenant, ma vie est pourrie!Je ne veux pas que mes sentiments d'affecter notre amitié. Je veux les choses à l'aimer pour être utilisé. Le temps où je pouvais encore être près de toi malgré un autre partenaire. J'aime bien ça. Nous étions comme des frères et sœurs réels. Parlez tout et n'importe quoi, se plaindre de tant de choses. Je veux que nous soyons heureux avec l'autre. Ne pas essayer d'éviter d'autres ennemis comme chacun. Il suce que nous avons est devenu comme ça et c'est de ma faute pour abriter encore des sentiments pour vous. Je ne vais pas le montrer. Je veux juste que tu sois heureuse. Et je sais que vous n'êtes pas satisfait la plupart du temps en raison de son. Et elle n'est pas heureuse à cause de moi. Si je peux, je veux serait la rencontrer et lui dire combien vous l'aimez et qu'elle peut vous faire confiance sur ce point. Je ne veux pas vous voir à nouveau. Pas plus.
Sunday, 3 June 2012
Gosh...
CHEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I lost my touchy... :'( *emotional break down* OMG!!!! I'm really sad right now man... I dun mind losing that device but the contents... DIE DIE ALSO CANNOT LOSE!!!! No music nvm, got CD and can download but my pix and vids are all gone!!! Hope some kind soul will find my touchy and return it... *prays* I'm like in desperate need to get my touchy back just because of those things right now la!!! Those pix and vids are my precious!!! Argh!!! I swear I'm gonna thank that person who finds touchy!!! Just get me those pix and vids back and you can have the device. I wan the vids back esp! Those are like the last bits of my happy memories~ T.T
Last night, i had a dream. It was... Hmm... Kindda weird cos it felt real. Yet, i dun think i really would do that for nothing... Not gonna talk about wad dream it was though... Hahahas!! Else i think tonight also will get the same dream le. Had to confess that it felt nice to have that kind of dream. The other side of me... HEHEHEHE!!! Missed it quite a lot...
Today, did nothing much... At home slack one whole day, thinking about the op... Scary... Haiz! Have to face it anyways. It's my own fate. Thanks to me for not taking care of my own body... And mister, get that in your mind, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! But it's really scary how the lack of nutrition can do to your body. Yet, i guess it's better to get it over and done with ASAP else it'll bother me even further in the future. Tot about it all day. Hugged Aydeen around for the whole day. I just love her smell <3 At night, went to Giant. Wore something quite translucent the mei was like "Walao... Can see through one might as well dun wear la!!" But i think it's just fine lehhh... Think she's jealous cos she's my lover. WAHAHA!!! Had dindin at Giant the food there... Aweful -.- Mummy bought hor fun yet the sauce taste like soya sauce. Not nice at all... Spent a total of $331.++ there. Bought many many alcohol and fruits. Daddy bought 4 bottles of red wine, 3 cartons of beer, Longan, apple, orange, avocado and many many other things. When we were about to go pay for our purchases, something caught my eye. NIVEA good-bye cellulite gel-cream. Then i went to mei and told her "I know wad you need." And she just happily follows behind me. Pointed to her the ad board and she was like *squints eyes* *understood* =.= "will work meh... Looks ex leh..." So i just took one which costs $30 for 200ml. Yea. Quite ex. I wonder if it really works uh... Good for everyone.
So, now I'm home. Playing tetris and stuffs like that. And drinking red wine. Just because i finished a whole glass in 3 mins, daddy thinks that i can drink more so he poured a whole cup(beer cup size) and asked me to finish it cos he dun wanna keep the red wine. Honestly, I'm a little giddy already uh... Hahahas!! Haven even finished yet. Shall go finish it now. Bye~
Last night, i had a dream. It was... Hmm... Kindda weird cos it felt real. Yet, i dun think i really would do that for nothing... Not gonna talk about wad dream it was though... Hahahas!! Else i think tonight also will get the same dream le. Had to confess that it felt nice to have that kind of dream. The other side of me... HEHEHEHE!!! Missed it quite a lot...
Today, did nothing much... At home slack one whole day, thinking about the op... Scary... Haiz! Have to face it anyways. It's my own fate. Thanks to me for not taking care of my own body... And mister, get that in your mind, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! But it's really scary how the lack of nutrition can do to your body. Yet, i guess it's better to get it over and done with ASAP else it'll bother me even further in the future. Tot about it all day. Hugged Aydeen around for the whole day. I just love her smell <3 At night, went to Giant. Wore something quite translucent the mei was like "Walao... Can see through one might as well dun wear la!!" But i think it's just fine lehhh... Think she's jealous cos she's my lover. WAHAHA!!! Had dindin at Giant the food there... Aweful -.- Mummy bought hor fun yet the sauce taste like soya sauce. Not nice at all... Spent a total of $331.++ there. Bought many many alcohol and fruits. Daddy bought 4 bottles of red wine, 3 cartons of beer, Longan, apple, orange, avocado and many many other things. When we were about to go pay for our purchases, something caught my eye. NIVEA good-bye cellulite gel-cream. Then i went to mei and told her "I know wad you need." And she just happily follows behind me. Pointed to her the ad board and she was like *squints eyes* *understood* =.= "will work meh... Looks ex leh..." So i just took one which costs $30 for 200ml. Yea. Quite ex. I wonder if it really works uh... Good for everyone.
So, now I'm home. Playing tetris and stuffs like that. And drinking red wine. Just because i finished a whole glass in 3 mins, daddy thinks that i can drink more so he poured a whole cup(beer cup size) and asked me to finish it cos he dun wanna keep the red wine. Honestly, I'm a little giddy already uh... Hahahas!! Haven even finished yet. Shall go finish it now. Bye~
Hospital...
Look wad i've done to myself... Haiz!! I dunno anymore la!! I dun really know exactly how i managed to get myself into so much trouble physically. Good la. Need go hospital liao lo. Hahahas!!!
How i wish i wasn't back. Much to think about at home. Once i step into the house, all the memories of us flashed back in my mind. I started to see you everywhere at home. Hahas! Gosh, i even left a big space beside me when i slept hugging Aydeen. Hahas. Fuck it... You just seem to appear in every corner around me. Hehes. I think I really am crazy like you said.
I'm tired now. Bye world~ <3
How i wish i wasn't back. Much to think about at home. Once i step into the house, all the memories of us flashed back in my mind. I started to see you everywhere at home. Hahas! Gosh, i even left a big space beside me when i slept hugging Aydeen. Hahas. Fuck it... You just seem to appear in every corner around me. Hehes. I think I really am crazy like you said.
I'm tired now. Bye world~ <3
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