Emptiness...

I woke up crying, feeling all empty inside me. I was so scared. I tried calling you though knowing that you'd nvr pick up. It really was terrifying. I needed someone to talk to me. Soon enough, I felt my face heat up and without me noticing, a drop of tear rolled down my cheek. Do I really wanna do this?? It's really hard! It's not the first time It had happened. It always does. And it hurts. I hate the feeling of being alone. It scares me. Yes, I'm crazy. I think about you still over and over. There were many what if-s questions on my mind. And now I know, you'll no longer help me answer them ever again. So from whom shallth I seek all these answers from?? I need them answered. I need my comfort. I missed your hugs. I feel so lost. I missed the way you always helped me through. I think I'm going crazy. I missed the way you whisper into my ears telling me that everything would be fine. I feel like dying. That's the feeling Have nvr gotten before when you're with me. It is also the feeling which felt strongest each time I thought of you. I can't seem to get you outta mind! I read fiction stories hoping that we are just like the main leads. Nvr tot that one day you would totally ignore me. Will I be really alright without your presence anymore?? I want you to tell me the feelings you have inside. Maybe I would make myself die for one last time cos I'd rather commit suicide(die fast) than live with an illness which kills me more each and everyday(slow death).

Good night, take care, sweet dreams, iloveyou...