Although i dunno how you 2 are like now. Cos also not very close le. But i remember how it was like. You 2 always strove for the best for the unit(WGS) de. You confirm remember me asking you "Me and NPCC, which one you choose??" You told me NPCC okay. Although at that time i was a lil upset but still happy that you know your priorities la. It shows that you know wad you wan. Remember your answer when i asked you why NPCC??? You said that NPCC is like your second home where you grew up at. The place you learnt lotsa things and it is where your passion is. REMEMBER OR NOT???!!! Gotta tell you, your ans hor... Very touching ah but i hope it's not just a line that you've rehearsed to tell it to other people just so that they will trust you la. Cos the passion coming from your eyes when you said that, it just sparks the feeling of "WOW~~~ Rare peeps. You're so gonna be successful in the future".
So now, 饮水思源!!! That word, familiar hor?? My chinese not good ah... You can tell me wad this means?? I think i forgot leh... But hmm... Didn't mean to trash you but, hehes! Your home and new house. You choose. Which one you wanna stay in?? If you choose the new house, and you abandon your home, dun you feel like "this is so wrong, no matter wad, that place holds lots of my memories. Without it, i wouldn't be able to be who i am now" those kinds of feeling de meh????? NO HAVE???? It just feels like suddenly that full of 人情味 de person became so disappointing towards the person who brought him to success.
You may wanna start a new life of some kind or even, to wanna settle down thinking that it's time you made that decision. It may not be the first time you made that decision, but remember, why do you wanna think this way?? Just because you've finally found something or someone who made you feel like it?? Of cos not right?? You must have went through lots of trails and tribulations, gone through lots of stepping stones, met with failures and disappointments before you finally feel that you have found the "way of life" you really want. Correct me if you think that i'm wrong.
If this is really so, then don't you think that you have to give thanks and gratitude to the people of the past too?? The "stepping stones" which have made you who you are now?? Well, unless you're not greatful for wad you are thinking now, you SHOULD be thankful to all the people you've met with, the people you've worked with and the people whom once, been so significant to you. You might be thinking that they are not important now but since they've brought you to where you are now, don't you think that actually, they ARE still significant and will always be no matter where you ended up in?? No matter if they were your enemies, partner, anti-fans, admirers, buddies, teacher, lecturer, acquaintance, friends, best friends, students, family, stranger, or even someone who had hurt you badly.Each one of them have taught you something in life. E.g. a rapist(if you were to be raped before). Although the person raped you but hasn't it made you wanna be more aware of the people around you?? Haven't you actually gained something from being more aware?? Okay maybe not. But it must have helped you avoid the same thing from happening again. Didn't it??
Okay... I'm going off track!! HAHAHAS!!! Actually i also dunno wad i'm talking about le la!!! I suck in expressing my own tots and feelings la. So, pardon me.
Also dunno why i would tear knowing that things have turned out this way. Kindda felt that it was partly my fault to be blamed. Both of you are the persons whom i love. We were once very close. We shared lots of memories together, had many of those "it's the first time i did this" moments together. And most importantly, both of you are the first ones to teach me how to love and to be loved. Hehes... Might think that i'm talking loads of bullshit uh... But yea. I seriously dun wish to see things end up like this la. You 2 de ego level very high. But can drop that for things which are important to you de. So, for your 5 years of brotherhood, drop your weapons and talk things out can?? Chill down can?? 5 years you've went through thick and thin, rough and smooth, happiness and sadness, successes and disappointments and the list goes on and on and on. Dun wanna be so leychey la. So generally went through many things together okay?? So, think, issit worth it?? 5 years leh... I dun even have a friend who stayed there for me for 5 years except for Quan, Eve and Ivan. But, almost like on off relationship kind of friendship la. You 2 even though 5 years only but seems like have been friends since birth those type.This kind of things confirm can solve together de right?? Well, i know you 2 might not be reading my blog le but well... Hope either one of you actually would get my msg la. Hahas...
Wah... feels like i've written a long essay and cried a bucket already. If i do this for my english essay, Ms Azleen is so gonna kill me, so many singlish and grammar errors. Well... Hope everything would go well for you 2 la. My fave jokers!!!^^ LOVE YOU 2 TTM!!
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